Yarrow (angelweed) wrote,
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Marsha's dead

Marsha died yesterday afternoon.  She had been unconscious since Saturday December 1, when she'd been diverted to MCV after the ambulance taking her to a less high-powered hospital thought she was having a stroke.  In fact she was having seizures, which proved impossible to control.  Eventually they gave her pentobarbital, a sedative that creates an artifical coma, to let her brain rest.  Last Thursday they started gradually decreasing the dosage of the pentobarbital, but her EEG showed she was still seizing and they increased it again.  The seizure brain waves never stopped, and Monday we decided to take her off the respirator, after enough of the pentobarbital had cleared her bloodstream that we knew that if she could breath on her own she would.

I slept by her bed Monday and Tuesday nights, holding her hand most of those hours.  On Wednesday they turned the respirator down, then off, and then removed the breathing tube.  She opened her eyes when the breathing tube came out, but was otherwise unresponsive.  I put my face where she could see it, if she was seeing anything in this world, and told how much I loved her and how wonderful she was, while her heart rate climbed from 100 to 140 beats per minute, and then gradually went down to 30, then zero.  Then back to 30 for just a few seconds.  Then back to zero for good, and the long work work of dying was over.

I loved her very much.
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